the heavens gleefully unleash their fury while i gaze up into the clouds incapable of pulling out the plug that seems to be keeping everying walled up and churning inside
its a raging ongoing civil war between my heart and my head thowing me into totally disarray
ravaging through all my insides, distaster in its wake.

despondent and depressed
and incapable of explaining why.
maybe i do.
i just dont wanna acknowledge it.

a storm is brewing and i wish i could simply be oblivious to it.
i dont wanna keep worrying and wating for something.
something i'm not even sure of
just something.